alright i finally am going back out...had to have 2 weeks off because of money issues and moving house and all the bullshit to get setup here in st ives...but im ripping now!
anyway...went out to the cross...went to world bar...was hitting everyone up with basically i think your cute I had to talk to you...seems to go really well to start a convo still...im fully realising again how much state is everything...and not giving a fuk what anyone thinks...fuk its intense...talked to kinda cute indie girl but cldnt get a convo going...she was bored with me...then we tried to dance but it was too crowded so it fizzled away..i just wasnt warmed up...i need to go in and lead...had a few little sets that didnt go anywhere at the bar...talked to amazing kickboxing girl...did a a bit of vibing and used tims plotline stuff...works soooo well...she was siked to hang till her friend came up and ruined it...then she kinda back off a bit so i just went to the bar to get another drink and started flirting with two new girls...blonde and dark hair...did old routines cause i cldnt think of anything...did best friends test and 5 questions game...havent done that shit in ages...i guess i still use it as backup...i shldnt but...i shld just go up and embrace the tension energy then own that shit with fukn coolness. blonde was totally syched but after they lost the 5 questions game they were pissed off and wouldnt buy me a drink...i shld just do it for fun , not for a drink...if they cant afford it they refuse and its a weird situation. who cares but...no situation is weird..its all just nothing...all just energy floating round a room...fuk i just need to walk up and take what i want and fukn own that shit...i dunno know why they suddenly hated on me...it was cause of dark haired girl...if id had a wing or something we woulda been on...i need to just grab some random dude and introduce the friend to him...then just isolate with my chick...its not that hard really...just fukn do it...it all works out...you can isolate by just turning your back on the other one...fuk i need to get onto this shit...its not that hard...i need to get out there more.
so anyway i go back to kickboxing hot girl...loved this girl...kinda indie rock chick...styklish art chick...not super hot but cute and cool...she is like oh my boyfriend is back...and now i have to go...fuk so she's bailing but comes straight into my arms for a hug and a kiss on the cheek...i think i look to young when i shave...as weird as that sounds for me. she had a b/f which was a shame otherwise i reckon i clda got her to stay or a number or something...the friends were a bit annoying but...guy mates...guess they were just protecting her but...plus she did have a b/f...good reaction from her though...if we clda talked more it woulda slowly been on...i dont have any comfort game cause i can barely fukn get there..
alright i think i then hit on hawaaiin chick who was standing with her dude...but she loved me anyway...then the dude kinda barred me a bit...ior she had to order and shit..i woulda escalated but the dude was off it...i need to be more of a cunt i guess.
I really just need to NOT GIVE A FUK WHAT ANYONE THINKS and TAKE WHAT I WANT!!
fukn own out thetre and have fun with everyone i see.
alright so i go up and talk to the three chicks who kinda bar me except for back one who is cutest anyway...she invites me to sit with them because i have no friends...ahaha
we go hang and start talking...she is into me...cant remeber what we talked about... ui was starting to get drunk...so we find out the friends live near me...so i get one of there numbers...then i go and tune the good one who wants me again...she is keen and gives me her number after i push for it...she knows i got the number of the other one and is a bit jealous and pissed...i cant really even remeber if any of them were hot...fuk i need to not drink sooo much i think...
then yeh i just kept drinking and spent all my money like a fukn ididot and went home empty handed...i think i was trying to kiss anything that moved at the end or soemthing...i fukn cant rememebr but...fuk...who knows how it went down at the end...i may have been getting a girl...uim not sure...i remeber them saying shit about how i got more than one number all the time....maybe only once or twice...anyway all in all i got two numbers...both friends though...i reckon bondi chick would be solid but i dont know if shes cute or not so not sure i shld go there...i probly shld though cause i need to start gettinmg girls...fukkkkkkkkkk...alright pvt party tonight....oowwww!!